Like a Libra

The feeling that I get when I think about this training now, compared to maybe a month ago, has completely turned 180 degrees.  I was so nervous and resistant, I thought sometimes I'd rather just go back to Minnesota and hide out in my mommy's house and stay comfortable for the rest of my days.  I had the mindset that I would have to turn myself into this mystical, blindly trusting, raw food eating holy woman to really be someone people would want to take a class from.  It's amazing what our minds come up with to turn us away from our true heart's desire.  Yoga, fortunately, is such that our minds and hearts can integrate to form a clearer, less scary picture of all that we work towards.  In the two days we have convened, it has been recommended to just start out slowly, paying close attention to the point at which your physical edge meets your depth of breath.  This is how we integrate.  The inhale lets us take in the scenery, as the exhale allows that information to be just what it is.  The inhale fills us with new life, and the exhale recycles what is no longer useful.  Yin & Yang.  Hot & Cold.  Awake & Asleep.  Light & Heavy.  If we allow the breath to move us from one to the other, the tipping of the scale will become less drastic, with less reason to hold on for dear life so we don't fall off.  With our feet rooted firmly on our own individual path we will be able to sway with the wind, be as bold as thunder, and shake hands with those we come across with comfort in our belly, and love in our hearts.  As we begin to focus on our task, and not the outcome, hard work becomes less heavy, and even more exciting because we are making progress in our commitment to living a long full life.   Whatever the outcome, love the process. 

Gooo vinda!

Take a deep breath and... ahhh...

Today I'll be starting my very first training to be an instructor of yoga.  This, I must say, is the beginning of a long life of exploration inward to better share compassion and integration.  At this point I have cleared my head of self-expectation (as much as I understand it), and I'm looking forward to building on a clean slate.  It helps to have a good 10 day chunk of time-off from work to really dive deep into something that I/is love.  Hanumanasana - Here I come!